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[Tuesday the 16th of March // 22h30]
For memory's sake I've kept my old username.
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[Tuesday the 9th of March // 22h45]
[ mood | oops ]

Uh. I'm grounded from the internet until I provide my dad with proof that I no longer have an F in Anatomy. LMFAO.
:.kicks current event.: I hate those things. OH WELL.
I'll explain more in detail later. Hahahah. Gotta go now.

random: Yippee-i-yay. LMFAO.

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WHOO. [Saturday the 6th of March // 13h01]
[ mood | tired ]

Just got home from the OC.
I guess my favorite set hand to be Spitalfield's...mainly 'cause I knew the words to most of the songs. Heh.
Anyway. Yeah. No real need to get into a full on concert recappy thing, 'cause it was just: we got there, we waited in line, we got a spot, we watched the show, we left.
There are some key things I have to point out...
During the "we watched the show" part, Ate Leah and I bought some merch. It was hella cheap. I bought two Early November shirts and an Early November pink wristband, and a Spitalfield shirt. I bought a brown Early November shirt (it has an umbrella with some rain or something and it says the Early November on it) and a black one that's my favorite. It says "OMG! The Early November" on the front and "LOL!!" on the back. Heheh. I'll take a picture later. The Spitalfield shirt I bought is also awesome, 'cause it's PINK. Yesssss.
ALSO. Ace (from The Early November) was out at their merch table and Ate Leah got to get a picture with him!! Heheheh. I still need to send it to her (it was on my camera).
During the Early November's set I got some balls and went out into the crowd (we were actually just standing in the back on these riser-type things). It was a lot of fun and I got some pretty close up pictures of the band. I got at least ONE sQuaRe flyer to at least one member of the Early November. I'm not completely sure who it was, but I think it was Serge (sp?) who took it from my hand (he was behind this black thing separating the walkway from the stage to the backstage area place). It was really cool.
It was funny. I wish I had had the chance to listen to their cd or download some Early November songs before-hand so I could have known the words, but oh well. Heheh.
Now I want their cd. Hmph. I'll buy a copy later. I would have bought it at the merch table, but I wouldn't have been able to get the OMG shirt. Lmao.
Anyway. I'm tired and I have to be at work in six hours. I'm taking a nap. =D.

random: "So do you guys have any questions or something?" "Suck a dick!" "You suck a dick! That's not very nice... :.shakes finger.: Naughty naughty." Joe from The Early November and some guy in the audience.

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Is Friday the 27th a New Unlucky Day or Something!? [Saturday the 28th of February // 09h54]
[ mood | awake ]

Maybe it is for the bowling alley at least. >.<

Last night at work was freakin' crazy. I swear.
The craziness started with me getting a really weird phone call. A phone call from Miss Cleo. Hm. :.cracks up.: It was hilarious.
:.answers phone.:
"Where are you calling me from...?"
"Um. You're calling Cathedral City..."
"Ahh...Is there a man in your life?"
"Uhm. What? No."
"Did he used to play in football in high school?"
"No. There is no man in my life!"
"Okay, continue..."
:.hangs up.:
It was freakin' weird. I can't believe I stayed on the line as long as I did though. Lmfao.

The craziness continued when I got ANOTHER weird phone call. Well. Two.
:.answers phone.:
":.static-y weirdness/random noise.:"
:.hangs up.:
:.answers phone again.:
":.noise I couldn't understand---.: I'm going to kick your ass!"
hey look there's more.Collapse )

random: The reason why I want to listen to the AAR CD so badly is last night at about 1:55 am, "The Last Song" played really really loud and it was cool.

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hm. [Friday the 27th of February // 16h35]
[ mood | infatuated ]

Sigh. It's so hard working on a musical when one of the people you have to work with is extremely hot and you're, sad as it sounds, distracted and paying attention to what they do all the time.
Really. It is.

Moving on. The musical is fun. Heh.
Everything it actually going pretty well in my world. Yerp.

Uhhhm. Last night I had to train a new employee in customer service, which was pretty weird...'cause I'm not good with things like that. Heh.

Ate Leah said she might come into town tomorrow...and we might go thrift shopping. Which will be so cool.
There are some things that I want to try, fashion-wise, but I don't want to try them on new clothes. So thrift things will definitely be cool.

Anyone else notice Pierre's three slits thing in his shirts? I have. And I want to do it. Or...something like it. I don't know exactly what I'm going to do, but the basic plan is to make some amount of little slits or slashes (at most three) on some part of the shirt (most likely around where Pierre has them) and where said shirt over my black longsleeve one. Yep. Should be good.
Also, I want to try with a pullover or zip-up (preferebly pullover) hoodie cutting off the sleeves and making it sleeveless and...well. cut off. Don't ask me why. I just want to.

Aside from my crazy fashion ventures, I have not much to talk about. Heh.

random: I have a topic for my next "deep" entry (or just entry with a purpose/point) will beeeee: "Are people antagonistic because they actually feel that way, or simply because it has become the cool thing to be, and, really, they couldn't care less?"
I'll explain what brought this on once I get to writing it. Heh.

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Hm. [Wednesday the 25th of February // 20h45]
[ mood | contemplative ]

I find it sad...or just weird...that some people online know me better than my family does...in some aspects of me. yeah. It's just weird.

random: stolen from lly. 'cause i'm biter-y like that.Collapse )

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Woah. [Wednesday the 25th of February // 17h40]
[ mood | drained ]

Okay. So I guess it's weird that I haven't updated in a while...heh. yes...even a few days is a while for me. That's how often I normally update this thing. o_O.

Anyway. I've been really REALLY busy with lots of different things. No time to really do anything anymore. >.<.
Uhm. Work.
Work has been pretty much the same. Sunday was freakin' horrible though, because it was raining pretty hardcore. And the bowling alley leaks. Uh. Yeah. Not a good combination.
I had to go and mop the women's bathroom up several times because of the stupid rain. ALSO. The ceiling tiles are those kinds of soft ish kind, so they got soggy and fell in a couple places. Damn. Hah. It's pretty funny, now that I think about it...but back then it was not cool. Hah.

School. School is definitely what's swamping me the most.
Mainly Chamber Singers and the musical, though. We have these little rehearsal-y things with Chambers every now and then...which is fun, but very time-consuming. Heh. And the musical. Well...what with rehearsal every day after school. You can understand.

I'm not used to having so much to do.
Even if it's not even that much...it's a lot to me. Heh. But I can deal. It's no big dillio. Whoo.

Sigh. ALLY AND ABBY GET TO SEE SIMPLE PLAN TODAY!!!!! I'm so jealous. But I'm so excited for her. Probably moreso, 'cause we were talking on the phone and that's what it sounded like. lmao. I'm such a nerd.
But I honestly love Simple Plan like...so much. To be honest...their music isn't even the best. It's not like super "OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS" great (but don't get me wrong. it's still super-great)...I think it's just that they're such awesome guys.
They seem the most real to me. And other cheesy junk like that. I don't know.
They're just really hot cool guys. =D.

Uhm. I need to be moving on now. G'bye.

random: Bespelled (the game on MSN.com) owns me. It's awesome. =DDD. And so much fun. I'm such a word-nerd. heheheh.

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another new layout! [Saturday the 21st of February // 19h14]
[ mood | accomplished ]

That's right! I already made a new layout. Heheh. This time I decided to do it different from the way that I've been doing my layouts for the past...like...year. Or whatever.

Anyway. Yeah. I like it. I think my two most favorite parts are the French and the way the date and time are written.
'Cause (:.points.:) it's neat. Heheh.
But I will miss Amy Lee. Heheh.

Uhm. Yeah. That's all.

random: The French on the sky thing says, "the sky burns with the fire of a thousand rain drops." Yeah...uhm. Something random that I came up with. Whee. Oh. And the French in the comment string says, "Only I know what I think." And I think it's pretty obvious what the link to read comments says. Hahah.

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NEW GRAPHIC [Saturday the 21st of February // 14h44]
[ mood | amused ]

i got bored so i made this.Collapse )

random: I don't know if anyone knows this about me...but I think accents are extremely hot. Well. French and British ones, mostly. ^_^.

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i swear i'm online entirely too much. [Friday the 20th of February // 15h45]
[ mood | hungry ]

Seriously. Just because I am a loser and update my journal practically everyday, I expect everyone else to just so I have something to do while I spend my hours online. HOOHAH.
I'm so retarded.

Moving on. I auditioned for the musical at school. Guys and Dolls. =D. I made it. =D. I'm a gambler. Heheh.
Yeah. I'm so happy! ^_^.

What else is new? Uhhhm. They changed my schedule at work.
I work Tuesdays, Thursdays, Fridays, and Sundays now. Four days a week. Damn it. Poo.
Oh well. It just means more money for me. =DD.This means I'll be able to get my video camera MUCH sooner than I had expected. Which is SO thumbs up. I'm happy.

The Lostprophets CD rocks me like woah. This song (:.points.: Burn, Burn) is, I think, my favorite. Also, the Yellowcard CD is awesome. Life of a Salesman is my favorite song. It, seriously, describes how I feel about my dad. All angst and emo aside, I love my dad and the song seriously describes what he means to me. WHOO.

I've also come to the conclusion that I cannot have a favorite song off the Evanescence CD. It's just too fucking awesome for me to pull a song off there for me to like best. Although, I must admit that Taking Over Me is my most favorite to sing. Hee. It's just cool.
Anyway, I came to this conclusion when I realized that my favorites off that CD went from Going Under, to Haunted, to Tourniquet, to Whisper, and finally to Taking Over Me. I just couldn't decide. Heheh.

WHAT ELSE!? I don't know. If I think of anything I'll make one of those nifty edit things. WHEE.

random: Hm. On the Simple Plan CD, Lostprophets CD, and Yellowcard CD...number five is my favorite. How neat. Heheh.

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ALDSFJKAKSLDJFJASDF [Thursday the 19th of February // 23h28]
[ mood | ecstatic ]


Okay. So Wal-Mart rocks me much more than it used to, now. FUCK YES. I'm so happy! =DDDD.
Okay. So I'm crazy and I get excited over cheesy, matrial things. But it's cool, 'cause this is MUSIC.
So I'm at Wal-Mart, idly flipping through the crap CDs that they NORMALLY carry at our crap Wal-Mart. THEN. I find...LOSTPROPHETS - Start Something! AND. YELLOWCARD - Ocean Avenue!
That's all. Hee hee.

random: I also found Story of the Year - Page Avenue, and Stone Temple Pilots - Thank You, but I only had twenty bucks on me. The SOTY CD was the last one there, so I hid it somewhere in the "Musica Latina" section. Lmao.

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Whee. [Wednesday the 18th of February // 19h01]
[ mood | amused ]

Congratulations, Venerando!
Your IQ score is 136

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.

Your Intellectual Type is Visionary Philosopher. This means you are highly intelligent and have a powerful mix of skills and insight that can be applied in a variety of different ways. Like Plato, your exceptional math and verbal skills make you very adept at explaining things to others -- and at anticipating and predicting patterns. And that's just some of what we know about you from your IQ results.

Fun. Lol.
PLATO. Go me. Plato was cool. =D.

random: take it too! heheh.

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CDs I want just 'cause I can. [Tuesday the 17th of February // 23h28]
[ mood | tired ]

Stone Temple Pilots - No. 4 (and whatever else I can get my hands on. No. 4 is just in the jukebox at work and I've been obsessed with it. Hur hur.)
Evanescence - Origin (but yeah right...considering it's out of print and the few copies I found on ebay were selling for over a hundred bucks. o_O)

There are more, but I have to go to sleep. Oh well. Hahah.

ASDFLKJASDFKLJASDF. :.dies.: SIMPLE PLAN IS NOT PLAYING AT THE SAN FRANCISCO WARPED TOUR DATE. they rock me less. :.tear.: and most people who met them, say that they were able to spend a good amount of time with them on warped. :.more tear.: OH POO. seducing seb will have to be put off until later. :.cracks up.:

random: I have TWO! Red Bull is good and it rocks me like woah. AND. Jenna is Corey on Pacey! I found out the other night, so I'm kinda late...but whatev. It's cool. We were talking OOC in a chat, and I was like, "I'm Veej. or Randy." and Corey-shaped goes, "I KNEW IT! HI VEEJ! AND ALLY." and I was like, "whaaat?" Then I thought, "Who do I know that knows me better than Ally ('cause you know. she mentioned me first) and RPs?" Then I was like, "JENNA!!" and then I typed "Jenna?" but it was like RIGHT after she had typed who she was so it looked like I was stupid and hadn't figured it out. Oh well.
But it's rock awesome, nonetheless. Whoot.

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Woah. [Tuesday the 17th of February // 16h09]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Oops. So it's been a few days since I last updated.
How unlike me! Heheh.
Well. Not much has happened since my last update. Heh.
Chamber singers is still fun. ^_^. Our show on Friday went cool. Heheh. It was just a little performance thing for like fifteen minutes at some church in front of a bunch of old people who were eating. Either way, it went well. Heheh.
What else went on this weekend? Not much, really.
I have gotten back into RPing! Heheheh. Lly got me into PBing, which is cool...'cause it's like writing your own stories and junk. Wee.
I guess that's it, really.
I need to go to work now. Boo. Oh well. At least I'm gettin' paid. Heheh.

random: My PB's name is Daryn Sanderson and he is played by Deryck Whibley of Sum 41. Hee hee.

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Laaah. [Thursday the 12th of February // 16h38]
[ mood | tired ]

I called in sick today for work.
My stomach hurts.
Really. It does.

In other news. We took pictures for chamber singers. Whee.
That's really it. Heh.

random: I have a duet thing with my friend tomorrow night. Just a verse of this one song. Woo hoo.

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[Wednesday the 11th of February // 00h09]
[ mood | accomplished ]

my essay - how it feels to be musical meCollapse )

random: heh. i fouled twice while bowling today. oops.

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whoo. [Tuesday the 10th of February // 15h16]
[ mood | enthralled ]

Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming /
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights /
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming /
The goddess of imaginary light... /

Sometime last year, my friend Jessica gave me a copy of an Evanescence CD her friend had made for her. I never really listened to it, though, because I, for some reason, don't like listening to songs without knowing their names...And since it was a burned CD, I hadn't a track list.
Anyway...I was looking at the files on my computer (because I had ripped it, not burned it. Too lazy. Heheh) and noticed five extra tracks.
Two of these are original or demo versions of two songs on Fallen (not sure if they're demos or songs off Origin), and three are other songs....I'm pretty sure they're also off of Origin.
I am listening to the beginning of the original Imaginary over and over and over again now because it's so fucking beautiful.
It was always my favorite part of the Fallen version of the song, so of course I'm going to love this one. Heh. It's so pretty. Damn.
I was walking home listening to my MP3 player and I heard it and I was just entranced because it was so beautiful. I was just walking with my eyes closed, mouthing the words to the intro because I love it so much.
I like the Fallen version of the whole song better...but I love the way the intro to this one is. And I like the verse about "if you need to leave the world you live in," etc. etc..
Okay. That's pretty much it. Heh.

oh yeah. and there's this thing i stole from jennaCollapse )

random: My friend told me about this band called "Nightwish" which is "100, no 1000 times better than Evanescence." His exact words. Also his exact words: "They're like Evanescence, but with talent." I was a little angry at that remark. Evanescence has talent like woah. And Amy's voice is just plain fucking godly. Damn.

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Where is this from? [Monday the 9th of February // 12h19]
[ mood | bored ]

Here's a little game for you kids.
Where is this from?

The passions that drive us should be the ones we respect and admire. To feel contempt for one's own motivations is a vulgar thing.
Too often, it seems, I've succumbed to less than admirable compulsions driven by this furiously reprehensible machine of mine.
So many things inside that I can do without - desires and urges and whatnot. So extraneous.
By the time I write in this book again, I hope to be as cold as the moon that lights this page.

Shouldn't be too hard for those who know me. =D.

random: I'd say this was random enough, but I guess I'll do something. Instead of doing shuffle on my stereo (because it's broken) I program random CD numbers and tracks into the memory. Fun.

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Eh. [Monday the 9th of February // 10h59]
[ mood | discontent ]

Anyone remember how I was taking that acting class all those months ago?
Eh. I don't really have the initiative anymore to keep going through with it. I don't care anymore.
There are so many more things that I could be doing. I'm so much busier now than I was before.
The crappy thing is that it cost some $600 for my dad and he asked me if it was something that I really wanted to do.
But I guess therein lies the answer. Wanted. Whatever.
I need to take headshots and shit.
I don't really feel like it. Only because I have to do it myself I think.
It would be much better if we had just gotten headshots done professionally. Easier and more expensive. Damn. Everyone wants money.
I'm no exception.
Whatever. Anyway. I need to take pictures.
And damn. I was about to do it right now, but Kuya has my damn camera! Fuuuuuck.
I'm just not happy right now.

random: SMP seems on the verge of dying. =[. I'm not helping. So someone else should! Go join! =D.

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Friends for life? [Sunday the 8th of February // 22h41]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Do you ever feel like you've outgrown some of your friends?
Not like...outgrown as in "matured from/above"...just. Grown apart.
And not just random friends that you come across throughout your life...I'm talking about friends that you've known since childhood.
There's just one person who I've known for a very long time. We've grown apart...too far apart for me to feel like it's even a friendship anymore. It makes me sad to think that it's human nature for people to just grow apart. So gradually that it's not even noticeable.
I don't want to name any names, but it's pretty obvious for those who really know me. I mean know me as Palm Springs/Cathedral City me. Not family me. Not school me. Not online me. Not any other me, but who I really am.
I just feel like there's nothing there anymore. There's no more friendship...we've just become too different to even be able to continue. =/.

And do you ever feel like you never get anything from a friendship?
I mean...you know my little group...JP, Alan, and Joe. When all four of us are together...I just feel like I never get anything out of the friendship. Is that selfish? To want something from a friendship? Not something material...just a feeling...like a feeling that I matter.
I don't know why I'm so "emo" right now. I'm not. Just...contemplative. You know.

They made me watch "You Got Served". Hands down stupidest movie ever. EVER. I'm sorry, but it was disgusting. The acting. The story. The directing. The whole thing. The dancing was good, and I guess that's the point, but it was definitely not worth my $8.75. I would have honestly rather watched 95 minutes of previews for $8.75. Damn.
"Did you like the movie?"
"No. I hated it. It was stupid."
"We'll watch your movie next time."
(Yeah right. We never watch my movie.)
We didn't even go to Border's afterward like I had asked.
"You should have told us ealier."
"I did."
"You shouldn't have played DDR."
"Alan wanted to because we still had tokens left; I would have been fine with leaving, but I decided to go with what he wanted...
"Nevermind. Let's just go."

Maybe I am sad. Whatever.

random: Seriously. "You Got Served" sucks ass. Don't waste your money.

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